Friday, September 30, 2011

bored day

my blog look so awful..haha this because im to lazy to make it jam menunjukkan pukul 1.30 a.m.but im still live.nothing to do juz merepek2 dekat blog.haha

to be continue..... ^^

Thursday, September 29, 2011

goodbye my friend


it has been like ages since i posted anything in this blog , now its getting dustier than ever .haha, gosh i miss writing for my blog so much ,lately i've been so busy with studies and all and even my room is so messy that if you were in you would like to just turn back and run, haha.

on 25 september 2011, is the end of my day at uitm melang.i think i will feel very happy about that but its was vice versa. im really miss that place very much.miss went to abg nano tomyam,econsave,sotong goreng warung,aj, and so what ever place.althought kuala pilah at negeri sembilan near at my house but still take one hour 2 go there and its seems to far for me because i will never see my friend again.especially "geng grien geng" (kak mas, wany, n kak uyun).haha.. what the such of memories i had.

but im must struggle to move own. let's the past is past and become a beautiful memories..i will miss that time when we studied together,make lecturer angry.haha.

with eka tulips..huhu

time hari sukan..

gile2 time..haha

majlis hari raya yg bosan..haha

waiting for the bus to beting..fuhh..

my good friend at uitm melang(kakak)miss u.hehe

time exam..huhu

Thursday, September 22, 2011

the road are not taken

it's almost 6.30 in the evening,i am completely sleepy and dizzy,yelah asyik depan laptop je.but,i feel like i have to say something.

it's about my future.

yeah,maybe this is normal for pre dip graduates (graduates?) like me to feel lost after receiving their results but,frankly i don't have any plan for my future.wait . .i actually do,but im afraid if it will not work out later,and yes,i still do think that this is normal for a teen like me.

i used to be a mahasiswi now,im facing the afraid because in me,i still feel like a schoolgirl.budak sekolah yang skema.haha,i did apply for universities,UPSI althought im the UITM student. actually my passion is to be a nurse.instead of studying,i wanna jalan2.i did do a little survey about applying nak jadi nursing tapi,im not sure im fit to be a nurse .interview.gosh,im dying to go but,guess what?im not even 18 y.o. yet,=='

so i guess,i should be more brighter,and to be more brighter i've to get diplomas or degrees (im still blank about the stages here) because i ,as a girl have more responsibilities later on.i gotta do i what i gotta do,i need something permanent,something yang boleh secure my future.nanti kang dah tua,takdak pulak duit kitak.,hurm. .so,i tekad nak further studies dulu smpai degree kot. even bru pre dip

i really want to choose something that is not what students usually sign in for,you know,like being a doctor, accountancy or an engineer.for me it's not who i am,i hate wires and all because they make me mad.crazy mad.tangle here lah,tangle there lah,apa kaitan aku ni?

bila tanya ayah mana course yang bagus,of cos lah dia ngoyak doctor,or something like that.yeah,the payment is high,but i got no fun doing it.mengarut jelah aku peteng2 ni.haha,aku macam berbelah-bagi.nak pilih yang aku suka ke or nak pilih yang parents aku suka,because they always know what's right and what's wrong.

i don't want to be that person who's,in ten years,meeting his friends at his school reunion party,looking like crap.

i really do want to further my studies dekat universiti,genggam ijazah dekat dalam tangan.make my parents proud.aku dah pun apply dekat UITM untuk diploma ni,banyak juga course aku pilih. .malas lah nak cakap kat sini,haha.ponek nak menaip haa,,mato den dah mengantok.tapi apa-apa pun,i really want to belajar,

insyaallah i'll be there for diploma studies... :)

Wednesday, September 21, 2011


long time no post ah?hope for you to still be with me blog.i wont give any excuses why im not commited because none of it matters .haha ,plus you know how inconsistent and lazy i am. so just get on with it.

do you still remember some of my last posts? ,it's all about sadness and loneliness and all type of heartbreaks.well,when i read it back just now,after nearly a month of noticed,.i find it really EMBARRASSING. it is this big ,this biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigggggggggggggg of embarrassment.HAHA.

it is very annoying and crappy and unacceptably. i do know that i am my worse critic,and always im you why oftentimes i always so mean when i talk about me.

i mean,bragging too much about that is really childish .it shows how very dependable i am to my surrounding . (that did hit me just now) .

im sorry for making you look down on me ,im just human. seriously aku malu gila doe baca older post from this blog .haha ,sumpah malu . and to be continue with my last post ,still . .(tp im deleted..)haha

life now has been so much fine .new people new cases .i am now adapted to the situation . my new friends in pre dip are quite LANGSI .haha, and by that ,me the girl who easily terpengaruh, also become LANGSI in certain ways.haha ,i mean ,i talk like whooa now.i have many bestfriend and the others are girls despites how less boy are in my class.

im taking pre diplma in science ,maybe that's why.

it is really weird when you realise that how happier i am now than the first time.i did not plan this but i am now the uni student of that faculty and by that,you do know how huge responsibility it is to be put on my shoulder.,but maaayne,i know there's friends out there together supporting from behind.haha .

still got more days to count.

other than that . . i did applied for second intake of UPSI last day .first choice of courselah science and last one is bahasa inggeris.HAHA ,taktau la doe asal aku apply benda tu.this time i do not hope that much ,it is between afraid of too many hopes and how comfortable i feel now.but the real deal why i feel so hard to go is,my girl bestfriend, i know how it felt to be left out alone and i don't want to make her feel the same all because of me.but,daaaang .i dont know,the result pun not yet come out.chill la thing about me,always i think about the feeling of ones that i love when making a know how experience tells all.

okay, that's all for this post.thank you for still faithfully reading this blog.i'll keep on posting later on.but you also have to pray so that i won't be lazy no more.

take care : D